Wednesday, August 02, 2006,11:48 PM
Assalammualaikum semuaaaa........ hehe yea i'm back i'm back... utk sesiapa yg rindukan aku tu, sorilah la eh buat korang sedih rindukan aku hehe... bukan apa, malas je nak blog... ish ish si farah ni malas je keje dia... bukan la malas tapi otak buntu... asal nak blog ajer otak jam, asal nak blog je jam... anyway banyak aku nak citerkan kat korang semua... but just dunno where to start..
well maybe for a start, just wanna say that i miss a good fren so much.. yes while looking thru her photo album, i realise dia pon ader blogsite daaa.. so kak lina, bila u nak date me out makan ice-cream?? i pegang tau janji u hehe.. teringat kisah masa time skolah dulu.. kak lina never fails to cheer me up with her jokes, her weirdo-ness, her advice. seriously, i really miss talking to u.. apa kabar u la agaknyer eh.. hopefully she still using the same hp number, n maybe its late for her to reply my sms...anyways while reading her blog, terasa insaf sekejap... lama-kelamaan mcm tiba2 aku terpikir abt my life so far... wat have i achieved in life... wat can i be proud of, wat am i ashamed of and when i did my calculations... aku rasa i didnt achieve much... i really dunno how to put it in words here... nak talk to somone abt it pon aku rasa i'm not up for it.. of cos not everything went wrong.. my family is alright, and especially with the new car, we've been spending more time out as one family... frens aku rasa makin bertambah although masing2 busy, we stil do hang out once in a while... relationship, well let's not even go there haha... but career... yes i'm really happy working in this travel agency, good boss, lots of flexibilty, lots of travel chances, lots of things & experience to learn from but somehow financially i'm still unstable... i know life is all about choices and sacrifice.. if i choose to stay, i have to sacrifice my earning power... but if i choose to get another job, maybe i'll have to sacrifice the working environment... so WAT DO I DO PPLE?? tu la dulu time skola, degil, tak sabar nak keje, hah padan ngan muka aku... rasain lu farah! but i guess nie semua satu dugaan dari Allah.. manusia mmg tak akan pernah puas dgn apa yg dia ader... so i guess i should be grateful that i do have a job at least... and that at least i can feed myself. Syukur Alhamdullilah...there's a lot more out there who earns less yet have more commitments...i guess other than tat, my life is alright... and if only my health gets better...i really dunno wats happening to me... nak complain pon tak guna.. all my frens that knows my condition advised me to go for a checkup, tapi aku degil.. aku tak pegi... bukan apa, i'm just afraid of hearing wat i dun want to hear. of cos its better to know than to suffer silently, but then... well i'll make sure i'll go for the check-up one fine day.hmmm the entry might be toolong if i talk about some other stuffs.. so i guess i'll just have to share it out later.. Shah, one fine day i'll make the hong kong goreng for u k. do eat well and take good care of urself. aku nie takder experience pregnancy so i dunno wat u are feeling rite now, tapi kalau boleh time rasa nak marah tu istighfar la byk2 eh hehe... shall come to ur house one of these days.. to kak lina, nanti kita jumpa k... rindu ah hehe... ok to the rest, stay cheerful always!! adios amigos! Wasalam.... -FaWcEtT-
