Saturday, July 01, 2006,9:44 PM
I am finally expecting. Joyous occasion for my husband but me ? I don't know. Looking forward for it actually but now with the giddiness, nauseousness and my abdominal pains I don't know. I'm like bedridden and all I want to do is sleep I'm okay when it comes to going to work but the moment i am home then all these things will haunt me. I'm worried coz I have been having abdominal pains which my friends and colleagues says they dun have it in their early months of pregnancy. Is it normal ? Whenever my abdominal is painful, I would rub my tummy and whisper to my baby not to give me trouble. Please baby, be good, do not give mummy trouble.
I'm in emotional turmoil now. I feel sad most of the time, nothing and nobody can make me happy. I am back in the state to where I was a month before I got married. If only I listened to my heart........Or maybe I am feeling lonely.
Its been long since I blogged. The other time I went to Tioman with my baby, it was fun. Haven't got the chance to download all my pix yet. On Thursday i went to visit Fawcett's mum with Ita. She is very ill and we all we were worried for her. I really hope she will recover fast.
I really do not have the mood to write anything more. That's all for now. Bye. ~ShahFendi~