Monday, May 01, 2006,6:40 PM
Today its exactly a month I've been married but my baby is on the afternoon shift. So am all alone at home. Mum has been out every day to visit Hannah at the hospital. This little angel i hope she'll get well soon. She has been in the hospital for nearly a week and she's in a such sorry sight.
I have grown to be fat. My arms, they are getting bigger and so is my tummy. But i dun really eat much but i have been eating late these days. And after that, I'll go to sleep. What not jadik gemuk. I must stop doing that and get myself back to shape.
Last Saturday, my husband and I went to the airport to send off Pak Mok and family back to Perth. A lot of people send them off. All were there except for Pak Teh KL and Pak Dan. Riuh rendah kejap kat T2 tu.
Mmmm.....i dun know why but i have been feeling uneasy. As a new member in his family, sometimes i felt lost. I don't have a problem with anybody but i have this overly worried feeling that they might not be pleased with me, with things that I do. I dun know...really...Actually I kinda miss the times when me and ma used to go out shopping together and talked about a lot of things. But i felt that things are different now. Nevertheless, I love them with all my heart just like how I love their son.
Work ? I think I slack damn lot at work. I kept going home early and I don't give a damn about it. Well at least I was very pleased with my increment. Glad to know that I got quite a good percentage. And there is one thing i "beh tahan" with my colleagues. Rumour has it that I have applied for the post of inventory controller with logistics department. People have been asking Kak Noraini whether I'll be moving behind...Hey, I don't even know anything. Its true that I have the Specialist Diploma in Logistics Management and I was the best internal candidate but I did not apply for the post. I am not interested in working in the logistics line. And what surprised me was that even my big boss knew about the rumour. The logistics people behind have been coming up to me and kept asking me to accept the job. But i kept telling them I do not want it. I am happy with my current post. I am happy with my department. Though the workload sucks but hey the team spirit is there. Everybody help each other.
Baby ? Looking forward to have one. Hoping it will be Fendi junior but Fendi hope that it will be aishah junior. Haha...Well, cant wait to know if its a boy or a girl for Wati. I'm actually happy to see people pregnant. My boss is 5 months pregnant and I was so happy for her. I used to hate kids a lot. I felt that they are nuisance and all they know is to cry and throw tantrums. But things have changed. Now I love kids, the not irritating ones of course. Just like my nieces. But i cant imagine me being pregnant. My colleagues too have been telling me that they cant imagine me being pregnant. They said I am too young and I dun know, they just cant imagine. Well, we'll just wait and see..
I think I better stop here. My entry is getting long. Oh yeah, I miss my friends. I haven't met Farah and Ita in weeks. Guys if you are reading, pick a date and time, preferably when Fendi is working lah okay. -ShahFendi-
